Did you miss me? Because I sure did.
It has been way too long since I’ve taken a seat at my computer, glasses on and fingers ready to write. Over the last little while, I became too busy with life, work, and obligations that I lost track of one thing I’m passionate about… and that’s writing. It felt like after the craziness that was this last year, there was no better time than now to get back into it.
When I thought about what I wanted to share on here, I knew I wanted to kick off my sneaky return with a hello world, here’s what’s happened over the last bit. So – here goes nothing.
5 things that happened to me since we talked last:
- I moved house. Yes – you heard me right. I finally took the plunge and moved out of my parents and into a itty bitty, super tiny studio apartment in East Vancouver. This has been a dream of mine for a while now. A goal I had set for myself a few years ago and one that I stared wistfully at, at every New Years Eve. “Will this be my year?” was a question I continuously asked and who would have thunk that it would take a pandemic for me to get out. (Which, might I add, I don’t recommend… moving in the midst of a pandemic is seriously a struggle) I can’t wait to share with you (the one or two readers I probably have) what my space looks like! Keep an eye out for that.
- My depression and anxiety heightened. Oh BOY did it get to me. I think, once again, it was because of the WORLDWIDE PANDEMIC that my mental health took a turn. I had been temporarily laid off from one of my jobs and was faced with a truckload of extra work at my other. I’m not complaining about the work, because it challenged me creatively that I don’t think I would have done otherwise. But I started to feel overwhelmed… drained… and quite frankly, burnt out. My boundaries were limited and I felt the creeping of panic seep into every inch of my bones. After a tearful phone call to my doctor, I was placed back on medication which that in itself was a hard pill to swallow (pun most definitely intended). However, I know that it was for the best because I now don’t feel like crying every five minutes. So… that’s a bonus.
- Speaking of mental health – I started to see a counsellor. A therapist if you will. She has been helping me navigate towards my trauma. As well as helping me release the burdens I’ve placed on myself that I didn’t realize I had. It’s been challenging but eye opening and quite frankly… healing. If there is one thing I definitely 10/10 would recommend to anyone that is thinking about it, is to go seek a counsellor. Even if you don’t think you “need to see one”, there are SO many benefits of talking to another person who doesn’t know you personally. They see things that you and your loved ones may be too blinded to notice.
- I’m still very single but loving every moment of it. I experienced some major heartbreak and cried over a boy – something I didn’t think I would do. But I know that it was meant to happen… because the experience has taught me the value of trusting your gut and to allow yourself to become vulnerable with another human. When I tell you just how much I dislike vulnerability… but in a sick, twisted way, I’m glad it happened. Because I know what I need in a relationship and what I can offer too. I also really really like being single. HOWEVER, if a cute guy who can dance and cook just so happens to want to take me out… I wouldn’t be completely opposed to the idea.
- Lastly, I lost my Instagram account. This was probably one of the weirdest things to happen to me this year haha… One minute it’s my birthday and I’m posting a story about my delicious latte… the next minute, Insta is telling me I can’t get back in. I do hope to get that back soon but until then, I really, really want to start blogging more. As I had mentioned earlier, I really miss the creative outlet that owning a blog has. I know for a lot of bloggers, they use it as a way to grow audiences and create content and maybe even make a buck or two. And as much as I would love to do that, my main goal is to create content that I LOVE and if nobody looks and reads it, that’s totally okay. Because I want to do this for me. Minus the unrealistic expectations and the desire for everything to be perfect. And hopefully my Instagram will come back so we can have double the content fun!
So as 2021 approaches, I hope that you will follow along with me as I ramble on about cute clothes, mental health and maybe even a fun project or two.
I hope you’ll join me!
J.
Okay if you ever go to Galiano, definitely check out the Sandstone Caves. It is on Private property so you do need to be careful of that, but oh MAN is it gorgeous. It’s a bit of a walk down but totally worth it. And you better believe we took this as an opportunity to have a photoshoot.
